23rd October 2017
It was kinda hard getting myself to do the challenge today. The fact that I regressed during the weekend had something to do with it, it seems. I keep dwelling on things today, like “I’m not the shape I want to be”, “it takes too long, it’s impossible to reach fitness goals and stay motivated”, and my mind was telling me to put off doing the challenge until the evening. But I knew that if I delayed it I’d end up regressing again and not sticking to the targets. I think one good thing to remember, is that when your motivation is low, it’s more about moving and doing something, rather than pushing yourself to do loads. That’s what I did today, and I am proud of myself for that.
I feel as though I’m not conquering some of the exercises very well, my form suffers, and I don’t have the appropriate equipment to aid me in doing recline and incline push ups. I had to do 60 sit ups and having something preventing my feet from moving helps, but then it makes my feet hurt when it’s pressing in to the furniture. I feel so helpless! Sometimes in reality, it just is hard to stay positive. I just don’t feel very enthusiastic about my fitness today. I don’t feel motivated to go to the gym because I end up not meeting my target of 3 times a week even though it sounds so easy to achieve.
A particularly tough exercise was doing 60 reps of cobras – which was part of the abs workout but felt much more like an arm work out! I paused about 3 or 4 times during those reps and so I’m certainly not flawless at it but I suppose it’s better than nothing.
I’m hoping I’ll feel more positive tomorrow.